people were hurling insults around
no one took it seriously, but me
suddenly i saw a bolt of lightning
i sank down into my seat
everything seems to change
i saw myself in the middle of the room
dancing and laughing along with my frenz
acting clownish, making them laugh

then i saw myself again
but this time i was sitting on my chair
sulking away and throwing pissed off look
i was missing in action
nobody seems to care, nobody realise the change
the change was sudden, no one understand why
not even i
it must be pms, it had to be
or is it just an excuse
a term commonly used by me
whenever i cant find an answer

suddenly i felt myself drowning
i look around me, and find myself in the middle of an ocean
i could not fight against the turbulent water
no matter how hard i try
there was no one to help me, but myself
i thought of all the insults that were being hurled around
began scheming how to get back a them
then i felt myself losing to the water
i tried to force those harsh words out of my mind
but i cun, my mind wasnt cooperating
then i remembered this
Don't repay evil for evil.
Don't snap back at thoe who say unkind things about you.
instead, pray for God's help for them,
for we are to be kind to others,
and God will bless us for it
Everything calmed down
the water, my mind
even the evil thoughts vanished into thin air
the pain, loniness, emptiness were gone
i was back in the middle of the classroom
dancing and laughing again...

i'm feeling realie sad now.. for this girl in my sch. She has gone to a place much better than here. just pray that her soul will rest in peace. though i may not know her but she's only 15. she still has a long way ahead of her. and now everything is stolen away. her dreams, ambition, wishes are never gonna come true.
wat if u were to die tmr, wat's the biggest regret u will have?
if u were to die tmr, do u think you will go to heaven?
i guess my biggest regret is not being able to be a paediatrician, helping those helpless children who arent as lucky as me.
and of course not being able to have children of my own

Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind. Where do I go?
And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know, I still miss you somehow

ooohh.. blogger just revamped..and i din know.. this show how long since i have last updated here. well gonna watch charlie's angel later=)

sometime we dun cherish wat we have until we lost them. this feeling suck. u will only grow to regret your choice later. but right now you are just so headstrong and stubborn dat u refuse to realise wat's missing. i sincerely hope that u will stop this act and end everyone's misery. please...

ya went for becca's church's family day
i'm realie burned now
the sun was mad seriously
anyway hmmm it was fun
ya played captain's ball and all
met a few new faces and i guess it's good overall
though it was chao hot
felt so guilty now
fell asleep during exco mtg
and fel a bit "saei" she was so lame today
hahah okie i'm realie tired and tmr i'm having exco mtg again
hmmm gonna wake up quite early
and since i'm tired i shall slp early tonite=)

hmmm being neglecting my blog for quite some time
oh i went to shelve books at the orchard library today!
haha it was fun!!!
but quite tiring
i muz say i'm quite good at shelving books now=)
haha and also mag.. it's easy to shelve the mag too!
was on my feet for like 4 hours?
except for the 5 mins toilet break i took
so i got to sit on the toilet bowl.. haha
jan was so sweet! she bought us fries
coz we were so hungry but we din have the time to eat
ya so she bought us some snack
so nice and sweet of her =)
okie i realise dat shelving books is very energy-consuming
but it's fun too!
shall do it again next time=)

okie today is friday the 13th!!
unlucky day i suppose
well it started with me feeling realie guilty
was suppose to go and catch a movie with lynn, serene, carol, val, aileen, yolk and cand
ya so after maths test, cand, yolk and carol went off
but i stayed on for maths lesson
ya i just feel bad for leaving when there's maths lesson
but i felt bad for making the rest wait
esp lynn and aileen
ya thousand apologies dear

den we left after maths lesson abt an hour later
there was a great miscommunication man!
i tot i sent a msg to carol saying to meet at taka
but i din noe the msg din get thru
so yolk, cand and carol were waiting in cine
while aileen, lynn, val, serene and i were eating at taka
den suddenly carol called, sounding realie pissed off
ya so we rushed down to cine
only to find dat they are not there
to yolk, cand, carol..i'm realie sorry man!
sorry to have made u guys wait! ya sorry dear
anyway we went to catch finding nemo!
and i'm giving it 5 popcorns!
haha yolk and i laughed so loud till our poor tummy ache like hell man!
haha it was just so cute!!
i like the whale lang!
haha realie funny and the mine mine mine mine part.. yeah
anyway had fun with them=)

i'm finally sixteen yay!!
ahha legal age for woman man
yeah but anyway just wanna say dat this birthday is one of the best man
ya.. not only did i have so much fun but all my frenz were very sweet!

val, shoe, carol and i went ice-skating on my birthday
had so much fun and i fell down 3 times i think
brrr...quite cold in there
and it's disgusting when my jeans were wet!
hahah oh val, shoe and i had this mass fall.
we were entangled together and some kind souls had to come and help us man
was kind maluating but at the same time fun!
after dat went marche for dinner and they bought a cake for me!
we had to celebrate in the middle of orchard
so we are like singing birthday song in the midst of nowhere!
hahah quite amusing though.. and new

yixiu, cand, mel, eeli, yolkz, joan, aileen, jess, carol, lynn and val..u guys rawkz!
thanks for the gigantic jelly-cake
it was realie creative and it's like the 1st time i ever seen such big jelly before
and thanks for the trouble and effort
i realie appreciate it!
ya i love you guys man=)
it was so sweet when i saw the jelly-cake
think they spent a long time doing dat

meili, ruishan, desiree and ruth.. u guys are realie sweet
i enjoyed the mini oreo cheese cake!
it's super nice man!
haha and i learned my lesson.. neva be so nosy
i'm not going to ask who msg who next time
hahah and thanks desiree for helping me get the number
though i seriously dunoe wat to do with it and i doubt i intend to
but seriously u are great man!
i wonder how u did it!
hahah had a great time with u guys.. watching pple at lido.
we shall do dat again k..
i love u guys too!!!

i'm realie tired.. terribly tired
i almost fell asleep during prize presentation
it was realie bad
i was trying my best not to sleep during the mock
so during lunch break, i was hoping dat uncle mobeen has ice coffee
but unfortunately there wasnt today
slept for 15 mins before the mock and sleep again for 10 mins after i finish
this is like the 1st time i ever felt this tired man
oh haha my frenz are so cute man
we had lots of free time after the presentation
so we started talking about scary movie
ahaha and we are all going to watch ju-on on fri
hahah gonna scream our lungs out man
i definitely cant sit next to yolkz coz we will just end up screaming into each other ears
hahah oh and today is miss sim's last day
so sad man
the sec 2 were very sweet
ordered pizza and sort of like had a small farewell party for her
well i think the sec 4 shld organize bbq for her..
both val and i were thinking of dat.
but i guess we have to check the response 1st

sometime in life
there are unexpected things dat will happen
and i guess i have to give pple the benefit of the doubt
things take time and i cant just make a conclusion so fast
hmmm i shall wait and see