today st. nix had prefects investiture
was excused from school to attend the ceremony=)
so glad to be back in st nix
the familiar faces welcome us as we step into st nix=)
the feeling was so overwhelming dat i almost teared
i miss the surrounding, teachers, and even the canteen food!
nothing beats the orange bowl and uncle mobeen's milk tea=)
this year investiture wasnt wat i expect it to be
everything was kind of in a rush
and in a way, it seems very informal
the names of the student leaders were not read out
i think they shld because they are going to be the one leading the entire student body
so they shld be given recognition for dat
no more discipline committee
the entire structure of the board has changed
now they have PIMB which stand for
prefects' in monkey business
ahhah quite funny but i think it gives the pmb a very playful image
and they have FOC
which stands for full of crap
hahah and the monitors werent introduced properly too
oh oh oh and they did not dance the family dance!!
the family dance is a symbol of our school
something dat st nix girls are proud of
and yet they did not dance!!
quite disappointing but i cant blame them
the school dun want them to dance
i wonder wat is miss helen choo doing man
she's like destroying our culture and everything
definitely different from mrs hwang!!
i miss mrs hwang man
she's genuine and warm to us
treating us like her bao bei!
i miss her calling us bao bei in the morning
and telling us her grandmother's story
and the sisterly bond is disappearing too
sad i must say

was so happy to see everyone again
most of the exco manage to turn up =)
but still pple seems to have changed
well i guess i shld say we have grown up
hope things dun change too much
i hate changes yet i do welcome them
contradicting huh?
well i guess dat's life=)

was i realie pmsing?
or was it just an excuse?
ever since tue, i was super moody
perhaps thinking of whether i shld stay in hwa chong or not
somehow i think dat pple in hwa chong arent as appreciative as s nix
pple often make use of others
after they are no longer "useful", pple cast them away just like a piece of tissue paper
it's sickening to watch this happening and to find dat i might happen on me
i'm sick of the way they treat others
it's maddening and i'm damnit disgusted of it
sue me if i'm wrong
pple are just superficial
and it drove me up the wall man

i must thank history and social studies for equipping me with the skill of detecting biasness
biasness is easily detected once u are equipped with the skills
and it hurts to detect too much biasness..
not a good sign man
so to stay or not stay?
this is a tough question which i have being asking myself since monday
lets put it this way i'm sick of the way pple look at you
the criteria dat they set for other pple
making use of others to accomplice personal goals
i think dat's despicable

i just received a devastating blow!
yes felt as if i was slapped hard across my face
the feeling hurt so much dat my eyes were brimmed with tears
but being stubborn, i refused to let them come down
yes i believe it's time for me to reflect on my behaviour
so sick of pple telling me that i seem flirtatious
reason being i was too over friendly with pple
i mean dat's a dumb reason rite?
when u are dao, pple criticised
too friendly, pple point fingers at you and label u as a flirt
i mean WHAT'S THE PROBLEM man
u were told dat do what you want others to do to you
i definitely din expect dat by being friendly, pple will call u a flirt
dat's totally absurd man
oh well dat's wat i get by being friendly
i have always think dat being socialable and outspoken is a gift
but i guess i'm wrong huh
if i'm a flirt and someone who's pro-active
why would i be a nun for 17 years?
think abt dat before giving me some ridiculous reason
perhaps it's just something abt me dat i need to change
and i better do it fast before i'm labelled a flirt
and i detest that!!
so i guess i'll try to make a lower profile and stop treating pple like they are by best buds
coz one thing i know, it doesnt pay to be nice
pple just simply talk abt you and point fingers