today was such a tiring day!
fell asleep for one entire period
well dat's because our physics tutor din come today
mr lau came in and bang on the table to wake me up
coz apparently i was still sleeping when he came in
and i was sitting in the front row!
how embarrassing la!
after sch was slacking ard
made some frenz with the j1 basketballers
hahah they are super crappy!!
and funny too!!
oh and stupid bingyang was trying to tell me this joke dat was so not funny!!
he said smt like, fongyi thinks u are the 2nd prettiest girl in sch
guess who is the 1st?
i knew it's gonna be smt mean coz everyone is always niaoing me
haha and guess wat thor said?
everyone else in the sch!
wah so kiam pa can!!
the joke is so not funny but bingyang thinks it's quite funny!!
did tuition hw at class bench before i went down to the netball court to watch the shooters train
accompanied jasmine to run the court run
and played chap teh with the juniors!
ahha it was super fun!!
we were having so much fun but jiao lian came and chase us to go home!

hmm i wonder why am i so bothered
after all we have not talked for months
and we arent exactly frenz after wat happened
but seeing smt kind of upset me in a way
hmmm well i shldnt be!!
coz it's none of my business anymore!
oh heck but i hate having this tugging feeling inside!!

today was such a slack day
no wait let me change dat
i normal thursday will be slack but today we had spa!!
yes horrible chem spa skill A
which i think i totally screwed it up!
and there was a "timed assignment" after sch for 5 of us
lucky i din study for the timed assignment coz it was quite easy
after sch we had to wait for mr low regarding abt the cca tee
yuhui and diana were competing shooting
haha and our dear yuhui is hilarious man!
she's like trying so hard
and diana just out in the shot easily
hahah it was reali funny
slacked in sch, played chap teh with the juniors
and den played cards with my classmates
pang seh diyang and diyan and went home

oh ya i think someone ought to get a life!
dat someone shld learn how to relax and enjoy lifE
but too bad he doesnt have one!
how annoying when pple get realie unreasonable
hmpf...

monday is such a boring day!!
my timetable sux la
i end at 520 every monday
talk about monday blues
sch was extra extra boring and draggy today
oh weisong baked some cheese cake
hmm i would say it's not bad la
not many guys can cook and bake man
someone got on my nerve for a short while today
i think dat's the most exciting thing dat happened today
hahah.. went cafe wadever with the class
had so much crap to talk abt la
when we left the cafe, i saw this suspicious looking character
i think he's some foreign worker
he was saying smt to us and giving us a pervy smile
super sick i tell you
so i quickly ran and hide behind the guys
before running off because dat suspicious character turn around and follow us
diana, yuhui and i ran down the escalator la
super freaky and yuhui said he looks like some psycho killer
i tot he looked more like a sex maniac!

i wanna thank someone who accompanied me by msging me given his busy schedule and all
realie appreciate how he makes dat effort to keep in touch unlike someone who quietly exits from my life =(

stayed home on hari raya.
how sad can.. hate being sick
it makes me so lethargic
and i dun feel like doing anything but sleep
had tuition in the evening
and i did some work
someone shld just take polar coordinate out of the syllabus
coz it's getting on my nerve!
it's so freaking tough la!
i cant do most of the questions
and most is alr the understatment
i think it's more like ALL the questions
finished up ionic equilibrium
tried vector space and i dunoe how to do like 5 qn out of 12?
watched cruel intention 2 on axn
it has quite a clever plot
but the ending is realie silly

church the whole of afternoon today
sonshine kids was quite fun today
joshua, clement, yiling and melvin came and helped out
i guess the kids enjoyed themselves?
aunty carol told me to lead a group in the follow up class
and for a moment i was lost man
i din know wat to do
luckily there was a booklet so all i had to do was to go thru some verse with them
geraldine, chloe and neli were realie adorable
samuel and i went thru those stuffs with them and they were so eager to learn
though at times they were a little quiet
after sonshine kids, becca and i rushed down to meet my cell group
aftet that we proceed to wesley church
it was jammed packed!!
so many young pple from all the methodist churches came for fusion 2005 =)

my mum and bro came back from hong kong on wed!
yes yes like finally man
my mum simply rawkz la!!
she bought so much stuffs for me!!
i got like a puma bag which is realie realie nice!
roxy pullover, a pair of roxy slippers, anna sui perfume
mac blush, 2 nike sports bra and 2 esprit shirts!
my mum and bro just rawkz man!!
haha i love them!!
oh and the best part was dat my mum bought chivas from the airport for me!!
so who want to have a few rounds of shots??
hahah but my dad wasnt very happy
he was like why do u want chivas for?
and i said to drink??
and he was like you're underage for drinking
haha i think he wasnt realie happy
esp. when he heard dat i drink tequila when i club

trg on wed was quite good
i could feel the intensity in some part
esp when the seniors did the full court drive
yup i could feel dat everyone was making the effort
well done pple!! =)
keep working hard!!!

after trg was team dinner at forture
reached forture only at 8pm
coz our trg ended realie late..
so 5 seniors plus 12 juniors packed into forture
we had to separate into 2 tables
haha so on my table was the rg girls+ aileen + eddie + xiaojun and mich
we were so hungry!!! everyone's plate was like super super clean la!
after dinner nana decided to play this game -confession
it's super funny la!!
at least now i know some scandalous things abt them
notti notti.. but as we promised it shld be kept within the table only
dear jasmine is realie sweet la
thanks for your note and sweets =)
hahah think u'll read this so thanks again!!=)

ole ole ole!!!
the lions won!!!
oh man how i wish i was at the stadium!!!
the atmosphere is like how amazing la!!
the score was 2-1
bringing an aggregate of 5-2!!
well done singapore!!
mvp was lionel lewis!
i think he deserves it man
he was fabulous i tell you
three cheers to the lions!!

was quite productive today
finish up my L4, arenes
F3, and started on ionic equilibrium
i pack my wardrobe too!!
i realise dat there are so many clothing dat i dun want or cant wear anymore!
my mum will be so proud of me when she comes back on wed
and for the many times.. i miss them!!
stayed home and spend some quality time with dad
he cooked dinner and we had crabs!!
yum yum.. miss his cooking too!!
there are many thing i miss in my life
opportunities, people and many others
i miss 4 wisdom
i miss the prefectorial board
i miss sn netball
and i miss all my frenz!!
darlings like carol, jac, val, baoru, shoe, amanda
and my recess gang.. lynn, lynette, ruo, ruizi..
i miss all the girlie talks
girlie gossips, girlie outings
wait wait i miss sn!!
i miss being in an all-girls environment
i miss my seniors too
all the j3s..
okie pray hard dat my week ahead will be a happy one =)

smt hit me quite badly during cell
when michelle asked us to rate our week
with 10 being the happiest
i rate my week 3.5
the lowest in the group
and i just cant explain why!
things have not been going too well for me
i have this tugging feeling inside me all the time
when we broke up into smaller groups
i just let everything go
started breaking down in front of becca and milton
hmm when was the last time i cried?
i think when i broke up?
ya somehow it just felt great to let those tears run down your cheeks
hope i din frighten milton
becca said that this year isnt a good year
we din start off this year happily
and it's a bad sign!!
i just realise how hard it is to go to sch everyday putting up a front dat i'm happy ang joyful
when i have this empty feeling inside me

a msg can realie cheer someone up
thanks milton for msging me after service=)
kind of cheered me up at that moment
and of coz others who msg me ytd, thanks =)
i shall stay home today and do some work
time to pack my room too
so when my mum comes home, she'll be so proud of me =)

boo hoo.. i'm so lonely la!
my mum and bro flew off to hong kong today
they wun be back till wed
so i'm left at home with my dad
and he's busy with his work lately so..-shrugs-
on my way home from trg, i was just reflecting on life
have made quite a lot of mistakes
disappoint people and cause misery for others
wat happened to my new year's resolution?
some people just seems to be disappearing from my life
some frenz seems quite distant now
quite a pity though

netball trg was rather slack today
after trg, we went for a run!!
so yuhui, jasmine, nana, yanyan, isabelle, aileen and i ran to sixth ave
and we stopped by at venezia for ice-cream!!
haha it was rewarding man
after ice-cream we walked all the way back to sch
i tell you, the girls are a mad bunch man!!
esp jasmine
eddie pulled jasmine's shorts down today at the court
and jasmine was so traumatised
poor jasmine, but it was realie funny!
i guess the only thing dat is brightening up my days
are my team mates and classmates
and i hope my mum will buy me lots of things from hongkong
wrote my shopping list for her!
and it's half an A4 size paper!
kind of miss them now...

i'm so bored!!
i think life is getting realie boring
i need to find back my goals in life!
being realie slacked these days
it's either doing tutorial, train, eat, watch tv, and sleep
nothing interesting happening
how boring *yanws*
i miss being j1
i miss seeing all the j2s around
i miss the feeling of being junior
i miss so many things la!
tried doing tutorial 4 just now
matices are tedious crap
was realie bored and i decided to change to ares tutorial
still feeling bored and that is why i'm online now
see point proven
life is boring me out
i need some excitement man!!
class seems realie quiet today without fang
realie hope she'll drop the idea and stay
our class is losing the enthu-ness that we used to have
even lesson time seems to be so much quieter
perhaps everyone needs to concentrate on sch work
since it's our crucial year and all
oh crap.. life sux
i'm beginning to think that this is a kind of pattern or smt
every year, i'll swing into depression at least once
and it seems to have a high percentage of it occuring at the start of the year..
crap..

*yawns* i had a good sleep!!
for once in many days man!
ahah slept for like 12 hours?
today shall be stay at home day
but i'm going out with my mum to causeway point to get some bag
other than that, i shall do my tutorial
keep to my new year's resolution of being a good student=)

i hate how things happened without a reason
hate how fast things changed
hate how fast time past
dislike when pple jeopardize friendship
but since everyone has his/her own rights
i have no business telling people wat they shld do
all i can do is just screw off and mind my own business!!

woke up late for tuition today..
was suppose to meet clarence, and both becca at hougang mall at 12
but i woke up at 1130
luckily tuition is at 2
we were supposed to meet earlier to do our hw
anyway all of us were super tired after last nite campfire
so we cracked lots of sick jokes during tuition to keep ourselves awake
after tuition was cell grp in church
only stacey, milton, jun yang and us went for cell
hahah the hwa chong gang!
caught 1st leg of tiger cup on tvmobile
it was the start of 2nd half
and singapore was up by 2 goals!!
and i witness the 1st red card of the game!
indonesia was down to 10 men only
but too bad i cant stay on the bus till the whole game
once i alighted from the bus, my bro msg me bout the 3rd goal!!
shuck and i din see dat goal!!
when i reached home, indonesia scored the last goal
my dad was kbing about how singapore shld keep the 3 goals lead
once indonesia scored the last goal, the last whistle sounded
so the final score was 3-1 to singapore!
oh man super exciting la
maybe i shall go down on 16 to national to watch the final!!
since i missed the semi, i'm quite determined to catch the final!! =)

it was campfire nite today!!
had lots of fun la!!
but before that we had netball trg..
so was rather sweaty and hot
so everyone went to bathe =)
spend the first few hours in the hall
was praying hard for good weather for them
coz it's quite anti-climax to rain on campfire nite!
but to play safe,the council move everyone inside
i tot 05A14's item was good!!
but apparently 05s60 won instead
wonder wat they did
this year batch is relatively quite enthu
luckily God answered our prayers
the drizzle stopped and we went out for the light up
quite cool but i think last year was quite better
had so much fun with my class and junior class at the song singing seesion
haha we ran all over the place la
bingyang was running so fast that the pple behind cun catch up
but it was realie fun =)
i simply went mad jumping around
mass dance was so funny la
we forgot all the dance moves so we anyhow dance ard
after the campfire, our class + junior class went to kap for supper
it was freakingly crowded man!
so we had to separate
sat with yuhui, sheena, bingyang, fongyi, aaron, chicken and jinghao
having our own conversation
haha poor bingyang and fongyi la
they are having quite a hard time settling down in class
but i think they are making lots of effort
was quite encouraging to hear that
after this week, it's time to be serious!
no more kidding around
which remind me dat i have a maths test on mon..

sometime when u think it's not
it might be a yes
life is full of contradictions
one moment you said this
and the next u might completely denied it
how ridiculous can this be?

wanted to update earlier but my bro has being hogging the comp for the past few days
anyway HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
haha i'm a day late.. but i think it's fine!
yup just watched singapore VS myanmar game on star sports
boy! i was super duper exciting!
but i think singapore players din play as well as they did compared to the last time
tonight's game was violent violent violent
everyone was so agressive!!
the myanmar players went all out to tackle our players
u could just see the hunger in them
the ref had to send off 2 myanmar players
quoted from weisong's nick "when you are not happy with the ref, kick mud into his face"
haha dat's wat no.5 from myanmar did when the ref awarded penalty to us
totally unneccessary la
because of that he got a red card and we din score the penalty too!!
i cant believe my eyes when indra from sg missed the penalty like totally?!
someone pls teach him how to kick?!!!
anyway did anyone see the water bottle incident?
tun tun lin drew the bottle from the sideline at one of the player
how sore can a person get?!
soccer makes a guy violent
haha am i right?
okie school's starting tmr!!
i'm so not ready and my dear pw leader just told me dat there is a maths test on matices on wed!!